2005-01-17 - 8:49 p.m.

Its been a long time.

Adam left to go to Iowa City and I miss him like crazy. As much as he drove me nuts, we had a great time together overall. The last 2 weeks in particular were amazing. There was a moment where we were laying together and he was looking down at me. He got teary-eyed and said how much I meant to him and how much he'll miss me. I really dont understand why he left. He got booted out of ISU, and was sick of living with his parents. So he goes to Iowa City to find a place and stay with his friend Ben in the meantime. He moves to a city he doesn't like, where he has no job, no place to live, and he can't go to Iowa until the fall. WHY??
So now I'm bummed without him and find myself swimming in a sea of mediocrity. I keep getting calls from guys I haven't talked to forever, that I don't like and don't want to be with. And the only one I want isn't here, but calls me and says how miserable he is. This totally sucks. (OH, and some unprotected behavior happened before he left too, so let's hope I get my period this week. That's the last thing I need.)
On a happy note, I'm going to see my favorite comedian on the 4th!

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