2004-12-06 - 12:59 a.m.

When I say I'm letting things go, I mean it, but things don't seem to let go. Things being Adam, because I still see him everywhere. I'm not going to be a bitch and just ignore him, so I try to be cordial. Turns out he's getting kicked out of school (again) and he's really losing it (again). In my efforts to be a good friend, I'm listening to him rant at the bar and then he starts asking why I'm talking to him after the letter I wrote. I told him everyone needs someone they can count on to be there and I'd be that person for him but I'm just tired of being his kleenex. He said that I'm the one who pursued him and he's perfectly capable of handling things on his own. I said fine, so I left. Later that night come to find out, he went over to Dustin's (where 5 people were) and made this big "goodbye" speech. Half of those people don't know him. That was Friday.
Saturday I had an insane night bartending and basically, Michael, Eric and I got our asses kicked from 8-2am. So I was exhausted, my back was killing me, and to make matters even better, Michael's man-girl showed up. I can't stand her!!! Its really not that she's dating him that pisses me off, she's just annoying as hell. Her voice is like nails on a chalkboard and she treats him like a little kid, bossing him around and shit. It makes me cringe, seriously. So the only person I could vent to was Eric, my other bartender, and he thought it was funny. :) I really try to be civil, I just can't stand her.
So I get home at 4:30 (after playing a few hands of poker at Jenns) and I get this text message from Adam. "I'm so sorry for acting shitty. I didn't want to go out like that." Apologies are progress I guess. Then I get another "Can't sleep. Hope to see you before I go. You were my only friend, sorry for everything. Goodnight sweetie." Um... where is he going? Who knows. This is usual texting for him, as he's probably in his sleeping pill/alcohol induced state of mind. This is the only time he seems to show any emotion besides being an asshole. I didnt' respond. Its ovbious that he does need someone and for some reason only shows that when he's fucked up. I mean, everyone needs friends, I don't care who you are.

Here are a few links that are from campusauthority.com, taken at Cy's, my favorite hangout and place of employment of Matt (hottie bartender). So now you can see who I talk about. Just copy and paste the links.

Me, Brenda, Laura, Mikey and Dusty (not to be confused with Dustin, who I talk about in here, and who doesn't like pictures)-
http://iowastate.campusauthority.com/collegescene/showpic.asp?picID=8691&x=46&locID=1004

Me and Adam- (not the best pic, but does he look like Johnny depp?)
http://iowastate.campusauthority.com/collegescene/showpic.asp?picID=8783&x=138&locID=1004

Matt (hottie bartender) and some girl who should be me-
http://iowastate.campusauthority.com/collegescene/showpic.asp?picID=8761&x=116&locID=1004

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