2004-10-19 - 3:05 a.m.

This week is going to be hell. I have 2 REALLY hard tests Wednesday and Friday, plus I have a ton of other shit to do. Yuck!
This weekend was cool. I went to Mickey's with Mikey, Dustin and some other people and saw hottie bartender there, who was with some ugly blond chick. He kept looking over at me, but never said hi or anything. Jackass. Adam met up with us later and we went to another bar. He saw his friends there, so he talked to them for a while. One of his friends, Max, was super cool. He plays the drums and smokes a lot of weed; cute in the punk rock, skinny skater kind of way.
I'm really worried about Adam though. I guess him and his brother got into a huge fight, his brother threatened to kick the shit out of him and now Adam has fallen deeper in his depression. He called at like 1am, saying how he wanted to disappear for a while, which really concerns me. I guess he just feels really alone and there's not much I can really do for him but be there when he needs someone. Now that I think about it, he really doesn't have anyone else besides me that he can rely on. That's sad. So I can only pray that he doesn't do anything horrible to himself. I can't help but wonder if he should go back to the hospital he was in over the summer.
So I took these diet pills tonight to stay awake to study and they worked a bit too well. Its 3am and I am WIDE awake. I feel like I could run a marathon right now, and all I want to do is sleep. On the bottle: May cause Insomnia. Well, no shit!
My red sox won tonight!!! I was freaking out! I get so damn happy over baseball its almost sad. And I've realized that watching the red sox makes me want to have sex. Weird, I know. But hey, at least my future boyfriend (when I find one) will be extra happy when its baseball season! I have to laugh at myself sometimes.

Hmm, maybe I'll clean my apartment now. It needs to be dusted... :) Hopefully I'll be tired sometime in the next 3 hours.

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