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2004-02-21 - 2:14 p.m. So things with Patrick aren't going so well now. He came to visit over v-day weekend and things were good. He got me white chocolate (my fav) from Godiva, got me a dozen roses and bought me a new computer chair. We had one spat his last night here because he came to work with me and got way too drunk. I was dealing with drunk annoying guys all night, and I wasn't too happy about coming home with one. So we argued about that and he slept on the couch. Things were better in the morning and he left that night and we were good. Lately though, we've been fighting all the time about REALLY stupid petty things. Like the other day and our pre nup fight. We almost quit talking the other day because he thought I didn't like him because of how cynical he can be. Things have totally changed between us. Our conversations have come to a dead end, or end up with us fighting each other. Last night he IM'd me afer I got home from work and he got home from a party. It was like 3am, so we were both tired. He was doing other things online and wasn't really talking to me much, so I told him that I'd let him go and go to bed. Well he got all pissy about it and was like "fine. whatever." and asked why I was so bitchy. I didn't mean to be, I just thought that since he wasn't talking to me much that I would go to bed. Well he signed off all mad and that's the last time I talked to him. He was online today and didn't talk to me and hasn't called. I'm assuming that he's waiting for me to call, but I'm not going to. I just don't know how I feel about all this. Its not a good sign that we argue over really stupid shit, but on the other hand, I really like him and I want things to work. I don't know, I'm just really confused about the whole thing. And I know he's not going to call anytime soon, because he's really stubborn and has that guy pride thing going on. I guess I have to think about wether this is worth it or not. I just don't understand why things have gotten so bad all of a sudden. I don't think he's met anyone else, and I haven't either, so that's not it. I think I'm starting to block him more because I like him more and I'm really trying not to fall for a guy who is so far away. I just don't know right now.
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