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2003-10-31 - 1:14 a.m. Its 1:15am, do you know where your children are? Well, my mother should know that her child is at home, STILL AWAKE. I'm getting really tired (no pun intended) of this insomnia. At first, I thought I couldn't sleep before 2am because I was taking a nap in the afternoon. So for the past 2 days, I have forced myself to stay awake, thinking I would then be able to sleep at a decent hour. Not so much. In fact, I'm worse now then when I was taking a nap. Last night it was around 3am I think when I finally fell asleep. Its almost 1:30 now, and I'm still wide awake. I really would like to sleep, I need to sleep, I just can't. This whole insomnia thing has affected every part of my life right now. Since I'm not sleeping well, I feel like shit. I'm getting a cold, and I can't focus. I'm such a space case at work, I've been doing really shitty and not being on top of things like I normally am at work. Consequently, I'm not making as much money as I was earlier, because I'm sucking so bad. A nap is definitely on the roster for tomorrow though, because with the frat's halloween party, its going to be a LONG night. The thing doesn't even start until 9. I have a job interview tomorrow too. I'm also meeting my old TA (who I kinda had a crush on, but now we're buddy-buddy) for lunch, so I have to look like I've had 9 hours of beauty sleep. Not the raggedy creature I'm looking like now....I've come to terms that I now have constant dark circles under my eyes. Its insane how sleep really can make you look better. Anyway, I got a "care package" from Alicia (in boston) today, and it was way presh. It had picture frames in it, candy, and treats for winston. It def made my week. Especially after the 35% I got on my organic chem test. Oops! See, lack of sleep. Or lack of studying...same thing, right? Although the test was really fucking hard and the average was a 53%. One person got a 99 though and I'm feeling the need to kill them because they're screwing up the curve for the rest of us "non-geniuses". Honestly, who get a 99% on an organic chem test?? I think there's some extra credit going on, if you catch my drift.... (hmm, maybe I should look into that...) :) Alright, I'm going to try (again) to go to sleep. Wish me luck, although I'm sure everyone is already sleeping... bastards.
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