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2003-10-29 - 11:40 p.m. I give up. Ted emailed me tonight to see what's been going on, and somehow we got on the subject of sex and stuff. I wrote about this time when we were in his living room and he had said something along the lines of how bad he wanted me, blah blah. I asked him if he remembered that, and he said yes, but he had some "opinions about it". He went on to say that he didn't want to write them so I wouldn't misunderstand him, but his example was that women were more "emotional" about things. God damn, he always makes me feel guilty about having feelings. Not just relationship feelings, but ANY feeling whatsoever. I was just talking about sex and he makes me feel like I wanted to marry him or something. I don't know why I even talk to him. And its not like I was the only one who had "feelings" anyway. As I recall, I wasn't the only one sending cutsie emails and cards. I wasn't the only one wanting us to be together. I wasn't the only one crying when I left. He acts like he never had any feelings for me at all, and it really pisses me off, because I know he did. Honestly, I give up. Fuck it! And of course, he never emailed me back, explaining his lack of feelings or whatever. He's treating me like I'm some overemotional rag or something. I'm not talking to him anymore. Fuck this.
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